Where should I begin? What are my intentions here right now? Am I starting that highly recommended book I’m supposed to write of "Lovey's Story"? Or is this a Bitch Blog? (lol that's a good one!) And then let's ask, just how long is this actually going to be a thing?
Lord knows I'm always thinking about how I want to just listen to music and write. Thinking about how amazing it would feel and to go somewhere beautiful like by the river or trails to be alone with my thoughts, music, and just let it all go. Do you know, I even carry a notebook or journal literally everywhere with me just so if that opportunity may arise I am ready to go!
But have I done it? Nope! There is not ONE day that will go by that I don't think at least once about wanting to write about something that happened in that moment or about some feelings. And again, have I ever sat down and actually done any writing in either situation? Of course not. Well... do we count this moment? Holy hell boys and girls, Lovey has actually acted on a desire of hers! Mark this in the books because it may not happen again, or at least anytime soon.
I wonder why I really don't ever sit down and write just for myself. It's not like my life is so busy that I don't have the time. Yes, my days seem more hectic than others here and there but only because of my own actions and requests of others, or really I should say the needs of others. And then there is the whole privacy thing, which plays a massive role in the reason why I don't sit here like this. I mean the only reason I am getting away with what I am right now is because Eddies next to me sleeping. Lord knows if he was up I would NOT be sitting here doing this because he would have to be up in my business and what he would do...well that's its own section to come.
Basically, I am always having to meet someone or take care of something. Always having to clean up something and never have enough hours, patience, and energy to finish. Or I am taking my mental break by coloring until my hands cramp, and last but not least, laying down lovin' n rubbin' on Eddie while he sleeps. Since I can't move or Eddie will wake, I will work on cleaning out my phone by uploading the massive collection of pictures I take but don't ever post. I'll do this until I finally fall asleep myself. Oh, how I pray for the day we have more than this room.
I have been doing better though at taking the time to actually write for myself though. Ya know technology today can be just amazing sometimes. I have just learned that I can actually use speech when working on a new word document. So all of those old journal entries or poems that I have stacked in a pile I no longer have to sit and re-type! I just have to read them out loud! It's AMAZING!
Is it really right to call it "writing a blog" when you are actually "saying a blog" when you use the speech option to do so? I know that I would and guess will get so much more done by using this feature than having to sit down and write with pen and pencil. Might I just say, getting to use that speech input on my phone was partially why I was able to finish the very first blog I posted. And I did so while driving the wonderful loud black stallion. You have to be hands-free when shifting through those gears!
Do you think there is a difference in how you may write when you write using the old pen and paper versus sitting at a computer and typing? And compare those against using the voice method, talking through whatever you want to write. Do you think you put more emotion, thought, and time into one over the other? Is one way basically better than the other?
That is definitely something that will get your brain working first thing in the morning. Okay, I know it's 10:30 am and not really early but I am fresh up and haven't had any coffee yet so the brain is working a little harder than needs be right now. Anyways, I don't think one way is "Better" than another when it comes to your personal work. What you put into it is what's going to make it. You determine how good something is going to be. I do believe that I will take full advantage of all three techniques for sure while working on anything that I write.
I feel like I have always put more emotion and heart maybe into something when I am actually pen to paper writing. I actually have no clue why that is either. When I just type, I think I get more distracted or maybe even lose focus on what I was going for in the piece, because I pay more attention to any mistake I made typing. Rather than going back later and fixing I stop and fix right then, which takes away from the feelings and thoughts, I started off with. It's all about being in the moment with me. Typing is nice however because I can move sentences or paragraphs around, changing the flow of the paper and you really can't do that when it's pen and paper unless you are re-writing the whole thing. At which, I will admit I have done many, many, many times.
I feel like this speech input option, well, that's going to be the best because I can rattle off at the mouth and say everything, and then I can go back and edit to create the proper piece. It's the best form of an outline and draft ever for someone like me! It's also the best way to judge my attention span or better yet, it's an easy way to judge how mad I might be about something I am writing about! Lol.
I think I just need to stop stressing myself over how well I need to have my writing and stop thinking so much about who may or may not read anything, and just freaking do what I do best and write for me! Who cares about the placement of topics, punctuation, and spelling! It's time to just start venting, letting it all out, and working this brain putting these emotions out onto the paper to feel relief and becoming clear-headed....and then we will go back and edit.
So on that note, I think it's time for coffee. Until next time! Toodles!
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