“Some people don't love you, they don't even care about you.
They just want to stay connected to you.
They love the benefits... So they do the minimum.
A little phone call here and there; just checking/thinking about you.
What they are really doing is maintaining a connection.
So when they need you... They still have a way in.”
Let me just say this is 100% true!! And damn it hits home and really just woke me up!
You all should know that the whole paragraph quoted above could not have been any more perfect in describing my life and how I am treated by basically all of my “friends.”
I have no radar to alert me of users and f***tards.
I have always done anything and everything for anyone in my life. I've come to see that I want to be accepted and liked so much that I'll do anything to basically buy their friendship.
So many would tell me what I wanted to hear to get me to do what they needed. Or to promise me something knowing I needed it, so how could I say no.
Just when I'd say, “that's it, I'm done” they would surprise me and do some grand gesture to make me forget just how done I was. And then the cycle just repeats itself over and over again.
Of course, there I am never learning a damn thing. I keep telling myself that one day someone is going to see how loyal I really am and how much I care for those in my life.
And then I tell myself that not everyone is the same. The next person I meet and help could actually be the one real friend and truly appreciates me.
One thing is for sure - all the s*** I do for people, all the love that I give regardless of how hurt I get, everything I do, and all the love gave - no matter what I know within myself I tried and I am a real friend.
Hope they realize it's their loss, not mine!
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