I just wanna sleep

I just wanna sleep..

Even though I just woke up, I just wanna go back to sleep. I am making myself crazy in my own head thinking and replaying everything that’s said. 

I hate how he’s made me feel

I hate how he’s made me hate myself 

I hate how he’s made me feel alone 

I hate how he’s happy 

I hate how he’s so heartless 

I hate how he can’t see what he’s done to me

I hate how he’s not sorry for the things he’s said to me

I hate how he’s not sorry for not having my back when I needed him to. 

I hate how he’s not sorry for not being there for me when I’ve needed him

I hate how he doesn’t listen to me

I hate how he doesn’t trust me

I hate how he doesn’t believe me

And I hate how he doesn’t believe in me

I hate how he doesn’t see how I put him before everything. 

I hate how he doesn’t see how he’s the only one I’ve wanted. 

I hate how he doesn’t see how much he’s broke me. 

And I hate how he doesn’t see how much he’s broke my trust. 

I hate how he’s oblivious to everything I’ve done for him

I hate how he’s oblivious to how much I care about him

I hate how he’s oblivious to how much pain I’m in

And I hate how he’s oblivious to how much I need him. 

I hate how he doesn’t hear me crying more and more 

I hate how he doesn’t hear my pleas for him 

I hate how he doesn’t hear me begging him to stop 

I hate how he doesn’t hear me begging him to open his eyes to see the truth

And I hate that he doesn't hear himself when he’s talking to me. 

I know I just got up, and I hate to say it, but I’m just going back to bed. I hate myself and what my life has become. If I sleep its only then that I can finally stop feeling.

I just wanna sleep..